This just doesn't make sense...
Why is it, that the woman you love so much, so much that every cell of your body says, its her or no one else, just doesn't realize how much love is involved?
I am honest, and my feelings are true! More true than anything else I have felt before. I just want her, to be by my side for the rest of my life. My feelings developed over months during the relationship. The tricky thing is, the better I got to know her, the more I thought "wow, what an astonishing, lovely, warm-hearted, woman she is." If feelings develop this way, it feels much more true and real to me.
And she just quits on me, essentially saying she found someone else "more suitable".
My frustration reaches a new top. My heart is torn all over the place.
Yeah, I know, there's a lot of fish in the sea, but how much longer do I have to keep searching?
Is true love something unrealistic, which I hope to find, but will never happen? Do I search for something that can never be found in any individual beside myself? Is the universe playing tricks on me?
It seems ironic, but the older you get, the more unanswered questions there are.
I think I need a therapy.
Sorry for that this post being not exactly funny, as the originator of this thread probably intended. I just wanted to vent this.
My guess though is, there won't be answers, there are only alternatives. But this is so absolutely un-romantic, I never have wanted this to be the truth, but here I go, tought a different lesson.
I want to cry. Seriously, I am feeling really devastated these days, for a few weeks already. Any feedback is very welcome. Thank you a lot.