Linguofreak
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I would be interested in knowing how you dealt with that experience afterwards. Did it make future events even more traumatic, and did it make you resent your parents, or could you file the whole thing under "needed to be done" and move on?
Pretty much the latter. I'm not sure I'd word it just like that, but I'm not sure quite how I'd word it at all. Insofar as there was any resentment towards my parents, it was more for scheduling the surgery in the first place. It's the concept of general anesthesia itself that hits something primal in my brain, not any experience I've had any time I've been under. I also had really bad emetophobia in childhood, and I knew that general anesthesia had caused my brother to get sick while recovering. I was basically fine in the first place once I was awake again and in the second once I was beyond the nausea window, but even though I've been through it and survived, the concept of being knocked out cold like that, so quickly from full consciousness, just feels like death to me, and that's repeated every time I've been under. There's been no trauma afterward from any of my surgeries, just a visceral terror beforehand.



